First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
through this monday without falling on my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how to do the figures (and not get it) wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on (without much sleep)
.....
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I HAVE surviveDDDD
And now, just 2 more reports *gasps*, 1 more presentation and 2 more exams *uhhhh!* till I am
officially
unemployed.
And I think I might suffer from SMU withdrawal, despite the lack of committment throughout the 4 years.
Afterall, it is the only school that students are willing to pin badges declaring their undying love.
Btw, does everyone know that all graduates are automatic members of the SDU once graduated?
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Monday, April 04, 2005
tuesdays with Morrie
yes i have taken down the i am so full of self pity post.
i've saved it in my email as a draft, so for kaypohs who want to have a peep, drop me a mail and i will see if i want to send it to you or not.
anyways, morrie helped. i think. i thought he din. but when i woke up (at 3pm no less, since i slept at 7am) i felt.. hey, okay. i was actually truly happy today. i went for a jog, my mom won 4d, we went for a good meal, i set up my hifi, packed up my room, did up my bathroom shelving system, threw out 3 empty carton boxes (i love to see the way the no. of boxes decrease slowly), sold a few more stuff on auctions, now i am here to deal with my beloved ibanking again, and my partner has affectionately renamed herself bang keyboard on msn.
I STILL HATE IBANKING.
btw, yesterday, despite my committment to my projects, which i was cursing and swearing when i was in the lift on my way home (welcome where the pigeons dwell) intending to make a big fuss here ranting all about it, because it is afterall my final sem, and all the bullshit and boosting of my meer 3.5 modules are rubbish because i've been in school, every single day last week, 'cept one, and i still have 3 more projects due, and 2 more exams in these 2 weeks, i finished reading tuesdays with Morrie.
but as a result, i had to work till 7am.
but then again, i feel happy. because i saw some light. (literally too! you know, the sunrise view at my room, not bad sia) i never thought i could. i could rewrite my previous post then, since i hate it but not as much as i thought already. maybe, one fine day, i could really deal with this pitch book shit. real life. real time. real money.
haha. dream on bumblebee.
i've saved it in my email as a draft, so for kaypohs who want to have a peep, drop me a mail and i will see if i want to send it to you or not.
anyways, morrie helped. i think. i thought he din. but when i woke up (at 3pm no less, since i slept at 7am) i felt.. hey, okay. i was actually truly happy today. i went for a jog, my mom won 4d, we went for a good meal, i set up my hifi, packed up my room, did up my bathroom shelving system, threw out 3 empty carton boxes (i love to see the way the no. of boxes decrease slowly), sold a few more stuff on auctions, now i am here to deal with my beloved ibanking again, and my partner has affectionately renamed herself bang keyboard on msn.
I STILL HATE IBANKING.
btw, yesterday, despite my committment to my projects, which i was cursing and swearing when i was in the lift on my way home (welcome where the pigeons dwell) intending to make a big fuss here ranting all about it, because it is afterall my final sem, and all the bullshit and boosting of my meer 3.5 modules are rubbish because i've been in school, every single day last week, 'cept one, and i still have 3 more projects due, and 2 more exams in these 2 weeks, i finished reading tuesdays with Morrie.
but as a result, i had to work till 7am.
but then again, i feel happy. because i saw some light. (literally too! you know, the sunrise view at my room, not bad sia) i never thought i could. i could rewrite my previous post then, since i hate it but not as much as i thought already. maybe, one fine day, i could really deal with this pitch book shit. real life. real time. real money.
haha. dream on bumblebee.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?
I hate finance post
Why did I even decide to take on this module? Because the faculty is cute? funny? because he will spoon feed us?
The lady is certain: she will not embark in a job that has anything near these figures, these FCFFs, these EBITDA EBIT EBI, these valuations, these net operating income = (EBIT + non operating income) x (1 - tx) - minority interest in erarnings + other incomes (loss) - extraordinary items and discontinued operations
these pitch books.
these IPOs.
these M&As
These fucking number crunching freaky stuff.
So what if you will pay $2.1 million to my team for fees?
I cannot man. I just cannot.
So good bye JPMorgan dream. Good bye a lot of money.
I am so so so on the verge now. And I mean it. d e s p e r a t e l y.
It's just terrible terrible terrible.
It look 4 whole years and ONE freaking module to decide that I'm so not for it.
I was so happy with Economics. Why din I just stayed on. Why din I transfer to BSc (Econs) or let it be my double. Why din SMU offer Econs as a first major?
Well maybe just i banking.
BUT I NEVER WANTED TO BE AN INVESTMENT BANKER IN THE FIRST PLACE
So don't talk to me till 5pm on Monday where I will meet the doom man. The man that caused me all these agony. The man who uses pokemon as his password. An* Se* Ke*g!!!
The only fucking redemming factor is that it keeps my mind off.
So let's to the gym wear that Kebaya fly off to space with my Anakin.
Why did I even decide to take on this module? Because the faculty is cute? funny? because he will spoon feed us?
The lady is certain: she will not embark in a job that has anything near these figures, these FCFFs, these EBITDA EBIT EBI, these valuations, these net operating income = (EBIT + non operating income) x (1 - tx) - minority interest in erarnings + other incomes (loss) - extraordinary items and discontinued operations
these pitch books.
these IPOs.
these M&As
These fucking number crunching freaky stuff.
So what if you will pay $2.1 million to my team for fees?
I cannot man. I just cannot.
So good bye JPMorgan dream. Good bye a lot of money.
I am so so so on the verge now. And I mean it. d e s p e r a t e l y.
It's just terrible terrible terrible.
It look 4 whole years and ONE freaking module to decide that I'm so not for it.
I was so happy with Economics. Why din I just stayed on. Why din I transfer to BSc (Econs) or let it be my double. Why din SMU offer Econs as a first major?
Well maybe just i banking.
BUT I NEVER WANTED TO BE AN INVESTMENT BANKER IN THE FIRST PLACE
So don't talk to me till 5pm on Monday where I will meet the doom man. The man that caused me all these agony. The man who uses pokemon as his password. An* Se* Ke*g!!!
The only fucking redemming factor is that it keeps my mind off.
So let's to the gym wear that Kebaya fly off to space with my Anakin.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
a lil out of the blue concern for my chao mugger friends
who are typically situated at the left hand corner of the singapore map, right at the edge, where even the mrt track ends. yes you guys...
i know, its tough to be top honours. and i cannot say aye don't start so early lah, because you are the ones who will graduate with people waving their scholarships at you (and that person who signed his life to the government, ....)
but okay lah, just try to sleep okay. this no sleep till morning and pia revision thing is... just waay beyond me.
(comp eng people are weird)
i know, its tough to be top honours. and i cannot say aye don't start so early lah, because you are the ones who will graduate with people waving their scholarships at you (and that person who signed his life to the government, ....)
but okay lah, just try to sleep okay. this no sleep till morning and pia revision thing is... just waay beyond me.
(comp eng people are weird)
Saturday, March 26, 2005
When?
The effect of a passing cloud of gas/aerosol will be delayed inside tents, buildings and vehicles. Owing to the lower air exchange in such places, it will take longer for the cloud to penetrate. A certain amount of the CW agent will be taken up and bound on walls and other surfaces, which also contributes to decreases in concentration. Consequently, it may be expected that there is a certain reduction in the effect of a passing cloud of gas.
It will, thus, take longer for the cloud of gas to penetrate a house, for example. For the same reason, the gas will remain longer in-doors when the rest of the cloud has passed by. Consequently, it is of the greatest importance to obtain information on when it is possible to start airing the building again.
Will the cloud clear? When?
The cloud passed through. Through a non existing 2004. Does it really take longer to penetrate? Or is it clearing out.
"Modern communication enabling technologies will only heighten your sense of desolation by making you more keenly aware of the fact that no one is trying to call."
It will, thus, take longer for the cloud of gas to penetrate a house, for example. For the same reason, the gas will remain longer in-doors when the rest of the cloud has passed by. Consequently, it is of the greatest importance to obtain information on when it is possible to start airing the building again.
Will the cloud clear? When?
The cloud passed through. Through a non existing 2004. Does it really take longer to penetrate? Or is it clearing out.
"Modern communication enabling technologies will only heighten your sense of desolation by making you more keenly aware of the fact that no one is trying to call."
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Moving house is never fun
Especially when you move twice in a year, plus pseudo moving in Thailand. So that makes 3 times.
But I guess it's the mega da shao chu for me, since my household have never been big on that every year. So we get decade old stuff still lurking around, clothes you wun take a second look at, and *gasps* my toys. Not those selected few, but almost ALL my toys.
I choose to adopt the throw away now, while my mum decided to go there then clear as there is no time. And my bro? Just not do anything about it.
But the good part is, I can now design the room the way I want it. I painted it in a ridiculous color that made the room look smaller, but I like it so shuddup. :D
No house warming anytime soon my friends, it will take the Chong Family months (hopefully) to get the house carton box free.
But meanwhile, you are welcome to try out my spanking new not-even-out-of-the-packaging MJ table.
Not next week though, because the deadlines we have to meet? Terrible.
Due to the lack of financial resources, the China dream is more or less dashed. At least, for the better half. I still got money lah, but have no idea where. Phillipines?
To end this boring entry, here's some cut and paste shit (since it seems to be in the rage nowadays and I am but a trend follower :P) I have been warned by that forwarded msg that if I don't send it to 10 people, I will NEVER EVER have good sex. Isn't that scary really!
"This message has been sent to you for good luck in sex.
The original is in a room in Palaiseau.
It has been sent around the world nine times.
Now sex has been sent to you.
The "Hot Sex Fairy" will visit you within four days of receiving this message, provided you, in turn, send it on. If you don't, then you will never receive good sex again for the rest of your life. You will eventually become celibate, and your genitals will rot and fall off."
1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women
make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which
makes hair shine and skin smooth.
2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering
dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.
3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that
romantic dinner.
4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and
tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than
swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!
5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into
the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you
with a feeling of well-being.
6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually
active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones.
These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!
7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE
EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.
8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages
saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that
causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.
9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release
the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.
10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural
antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.
But I guess it's the mega da shao chu for me, since my household have never been big on that every year. So we get decade old stuff still lurking around, clothes you wun take a second look at, and *gasps* my toys. Not those selected few, but almost ALL my toys.
I choose to adopt the throw away now, while my mum decided to go there then clear as there is no time. And my bro? Just not do anything about it.
But the good part is, I can now design the room the way I want it. I painted it in a ridiculous color that made the room look smaller, but I like it so shuddup. :D
No house warming anytime soon my friends, it will take the Chong Family months (hopefully) to get the house carton box free.
But meanwhile, you are welcome to try out my spanking new not-even-out-of-the-packaging MJ table.
Not next week though, because the deadlines we have to meet? Terrible.
Due to the lack of financial resources, the China dream is more or less dashed. At least, for the better half. I still got money lah, but have no idea where. Phillipines?
To end this boring entry, here's some cut and paste shit (since it seems to be in the rage nowadays and I am but a trend follower :P) I have been warned by that forwarded msg that if I don't send it to 10 people, I will NEVER EVER have good sex. Isn't that scary really!
"This message has been sent to you for good luck in sex.
The original is in a room in Palaiseau.
It has been sent around the world nine times.
Now sex has been sent to you.
The "Hot Sex Fairy" will visit you within four days of receiving this message, provided you, in turn, send it on. If you don't, then you will never receive good sex again for the rest of your life. You will eventually become celibate, and your genitals will rot and fall off."
1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women
make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which
makes hair shine and skin smooth.
2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering
dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.
3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that
romantic dinner.
4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and
tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than
swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!
5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into
the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you
with a feeling of well-being.
6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually
active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones.
These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!
7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE
EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.
8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages
saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that
causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.
9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release
the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.
10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural
antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.
Monday, March 14, 2005
Before I start my speech, and because you silly pig have NO comment box, here it is.
"So, Ki*rpal really did make your life better in a weird way eh? I mean, sure, it's kinda crappy that he talks about himself all the time, but hey the module actually got a bit of use lah?"
Today's post will not be of some thoughts I've been thinking about a lot all this while, because I hadn't been thinking much. But for a change, because I am such a mysterious person, I shall spell out the days (not in such a boring way as some other blogs but yes, let me end this poorly constructed sentence now.
M1 was okay. Apart from the fact that they did not seem to fancy Motorola and placed the display sets either next to something prettier and cheaper, or right next to your feet, where you need to squat waaay waay down and squint to see the display, they were okay. At least, not as bad as the hearsay is. Or at least because I was so on guard, I din even sneak off anywhere except to sit on the toilet bowl for about 5 minutes. But then again, the sales wun that fantastic. So overall? Not entirely worth it.
Sunday was rest because somebody else wanted to work and if I don't go to hell, who will? (translate to Mandarin pulease) But it was good because Miss Lee informed me about IKEA sale and I managed to buy my corner bookcase (not very easy to find), my bathroom shelving system, the tek ko for curtains for sista, a long wire meant for curtains but I'd put it at my bed and clip pictures, paintings or whatever. At some discount. And I realised my Dad's new car is actually quite amazing, the back seats and be put down and alas, extended space to put barangs at the back of the car. My bookcase managed to come home with me in the car, and I was on top of it literally. With my mum's new quilt as a pillow, I curled up and took a nice nap home.
And today I closed my bank account, took out the 3k left in it and walked across the street with the stack of 50's to UOB to do a cash deposit. (Note: No pockets in my shorts, din bring no bag) My mum almost fainted.
And I played this new game Yun Huey bought from JB. Imagine building your own Shopping Centre! Wasn't that fantastic, but occupied me quite a bit.
And today is SO hot. I hate this weather.
The End.
"So, Ki*rpal really did make your life better in a weird way eh? I mean, sure, it's kinda crappy that he talks about himself all the time, but hey the module actually got a bit of use lah?"
Today's post will not be of some thoughts I've been thinking about a lot all this while, because I hadn't been thinking much. But for a change, because I am such a mysterious person, I shall spell out the days (not in such a boring way as some other blogs but yes, let me end this poorly constructed sentence now.
M1 was okay. Apart from the fact that they did not seem to fancy Motorola and placed the display sets either next to something prettier and cheaper, or right next to your feet, where you need to squat waaay waay down and squint to see the display, they were okay. At least, not as bad as the hearsay is. Or at least because I was so on guard, I din even sneak off anywhere except to sit on the toilet bowl for about 5 minutes. But then again, the sales wun that fantastic. So overall? Not entirely worth it.
Sunday was rest because somebody else wanted to work and if I don't go to hell, who will? (translate to Mandarin pulease) But it was good because Miss Lee informed me about IKEA sale and I managed to buy my corner bookcase (not very easy to find), my bathroom shelving system, the tek ko for curtains for sista, a long wire meant for curtains but I'd put it at my bed and clip pictures, paintings or whatever. At some discount. And I realised my Dad's new car is actually quite amazing, the back seats and be put down and alas, extended space to put barangs at the back of the car. My bookcase managed to come home with me in the car, and I was on top of it literally. With my mum's new quilt as a pillow, I curled up and took a nice nap home.
And today I closed my bank account, took out the 3k left in it and walked across the street with the stack of 50's to UOB to do a cash deposit. (Note: No pockets in my shorts, din bring no bag) My mum almost fainted.
And I played this new game Yun Huey bought from JB. Imagine building your own Shopping Centre! Wasn't that fantastic, but occupied me quite a bit.
And today is SO hot. I hate this weather.
The End.