I trampled over an old friend's blog. One whom we never met again, or speak much, after living in the same room for 4 months together 5 years ago.
Because of this fact, I feel intrusive to simply pick up the phone or msn or even the random comment on the blog to tell her this, but I feel for you too.
Reading her past few entries were like deja vu to me. There were one too many times that I felt I was never going to ever, ever be okay again. I will never live my life not remembering how painful those feelings are. That it will never heal.
And it never heals completely. It never will. I don't think I will be able to live my life and pretend that part of my life never exist. The feeling comes back and you feel the hurt and pain again and you sometimes cry over it. My partner has learned to accept that this pain has made me who I am now, and he lives with it, and lived through it before as well, like many others. But it can only turn better. It will become better.
Have a little faith, and let time tell. It will.
