Wednesday, May 30, 2007

a friendlier to myself tell me about you

"hi my name is hui. there are a couple of things i love. in no particular order. i love yoga. it gives me an inner sense of peace and allows me to listen to my body. besides, i find it cool to be able to do inverted poses. if only i am not so lazy, i could be much mroe consistent at it, be better and fitter. i love food. i never really appreciate the wonderful food culture singapore possesses, where people think of food as a religion and will travel miles and miles (technically, not really, since singapore is quite small) just to get their favourite food. i love random discoveries of food havens. one of my favourite dish is frog leg porridge, which makes many of my ang moh friends cringe and ill just by the thought of it. my absolute love is curry vegetable, but i don't know how to make it. i love my friends, especially those who loves to eat just like i do. i like people who doesn't gasp when i suggest eating the buy3get2free+freeporridge deal even though there is just two of us. i never knew how to cook but realised to be able to cook is not hard - to cook well is an art. i love art. i like going to bras basah and pretend to be one of the art students and buy canvases and brushes (even though i don't know which brush is good for what) and acrylic paint. i paint, or try to, and hope to attend an acrylic painting class so i can do it properly. i've painted a few paintings and thankfully, i think i'm getting better each time. i have bravely given away the paintings as presents, but i need to build up my confidence and practice more often. i enjoy musicals, and have seen six broadway musicals in my lifetime, of which two are seen in broadway itself. my absolute love is phantom of the opera and i can memorise all the songs since i was 16. i am addicted to travelling. to me travelling is not getting to a place and enjoying the scenary. it's an entire journey a process from researching what to do where to go to contacting random locals to either ask for tips or meet up with them so that i can truly immerse into their culture. i've been fortunate enough to have met so many travellers - some travelling like i am, some taking a break from travelling but actively meeting up with random travellers who pop by their town and take us under their wings and show us what to do. it's really cool to meet these people and hear of their ridiculous travelling tales. i have some of my own too. this is the world of travellers, not tourist. i am part of that culture. i like to think i am a traveller. i found a man that shares the same passion and dream, but too bad he is stuck in singapore for the next six years. one day we will conquer the world with our map pins. in the meantime, i will have a headstart. :) i love fashion and clothes and am glad i am a girl because being a guy, you can't do that much. or have thirty six pairs of shoes and get away with it. i cannot resist dresses because they are so feminine. i love being feminine and fashionable yet geeky at the same time. i love gaming and is given a playstation portable to play with while i am in london. yay. i always smile for some reason, although i don't think i am inately a very happy person. it's nice meeting you anyway."

(jz i stole it from you again)

Friday, May 18, 2007

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

"Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?"

Ever so often I will chance upon some random blog of random people I met throughout my travels and read about their absolutely different bizarre lifestyle they have as compared to mine. Ever so often I will look back and wonder about all the what ifs, even though one of my favourite lines to tell people is that once you chose something bloody hell stick with it and stop wondering about the what ifs. Live with your decision and make it happen.

Like it is so easy.

I know that lots of people spent 3, 4 years overseas and should have 'immersed deeply' into the culture of wherever they have been. But experience has told me that many of them are living like a Singaporean with other Singaporeans (or Southeast Asians), just that they are somewhere else. So when these people return, they are not even really back to square one, because they have not left square one.

I don't wish to compare myself to them. I'm only saying this because some people wonder how a few months can affect one person this much. But it does.

How I am feeling now even though my travelling was all of 10 months before I came back to Singapore is that I am missing out on something I could have been doing. So many more exciting things. People who take 1 2 years off doing whatever they like, like Sandro, who is just climbing throughout North America, living in the desert, driving around in his beat up car but meeting so many awesome, wholesome bizarre people who gain so much spiritually and mentally living it up like that.

What am I missing in life?

I'm sorry, but it's hard not to feel this pang of loss even though I have the perfect relationship with you. It's just too bad that I've been 'out there' and its never the same again.

I'm here, still.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

I'm 72% blonde

[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting' you.
[x] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[] You have run into a tree/bush ...

so far: 3

[x] you know that it is not possible to lick your elbow.
[] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.

so far: 6

[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You've never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

so far: 9

[x] You have fallen asleep in class
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you were talking about.
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
[ ] you are often told to use your "inside voice".

so far: 12

[ ] You use your fingers to do simple maths.
[x] You have eaten a bug accidentally.
[ ] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time

so far: 15

[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[ ] You break a lot of things.
[x] you tilt you're head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] when you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "uhm" is used many times a day.
[ ] You had to use a calculator to add this up.

Score: 18

NOW, take that number and multiply it by 4 and REPOST this as "your total in percent, blonde

which means.... I am 72% blonde.

See, I knew it. I'm not very clever.