Saturday, June 25, 2005

Ponderings that never end

Out of the blue I thought to myself: Wouldn't it be nice if you were just simple, find a man, love him forever and die with grandchildren around you on your favorite armchair. Don't question life and your existence, don't look at the grass on the other side, don't seek philosophical truths, which, most likely you will not exactly get the answers even as you are lowered to your grave.

Wouldn't it be nice if you were not complicated? if life is all about playing in the river and five stones, racing each other to school, growing up to become a farmer, or a grocery shop owner, and just sit there chewing bettlenut and giving birth like a rabbit, watching them grow up and then pass away, not making a difference to this world. Your children will miss you, and your children's children too. And what happens when they too pass on?

I have no answer to it. For unfortunately, I have lived through the innocence and there is no return. But without experience, you would never have known what innocence is. Just like sorrow and happiness. I wouldn't know if I would have been happier, for there is only one life and there is no way to compare it to any past archives.

Why are we always searching for answers to the big unknown? Why do we leave our partners in search and in hope of that someone better? Or of a better job? In a better country?

This perhaps then, is the beauty of life. Simply the fact that, you will never fucking get all the answers even till long after you die. That you question, therefore you are. Otherwise, you are not different from the mosquito you just killed. (congrats, you are a marksman)


"The Sick Rose"
(no honey, I'm not talking about you)


O Rose thou art sick.
The invisible worm,
That flies in the night
In the howling storm:

Has found out thy bed
Of crimson joy:
And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy.

I am no more normal than you who think too much. I only look normal because I own the latest season clothes and blow my hair and line my eyes before I leave my house, looking like a million bucks while you don't care.

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