You know what? I think all the talks about having to readjust back to our culture postexchange is very true.

I had mixed thoughts. At the beginning I thought oh no I will have the I MISS THAILAND symptoms because everything is so expensive back home, and everything is so orderly and clean and well, governmentish.

But it is not really that I am missing Thailand that much, but more like I am a little apprehensive about integrating back into the whole socialising thing. I'm glad I'm home, like literally in my house. But back to all the friends and lifestyle I put on whole for 5 months, hmmm I'm still trying.

Afterall, I only had 2 people to fuss about for 5 whole months. It's either Ping or Rose (and darling too). Now I suddenly have so many friends, it actually was a little overwhelming.

Which is why I was actually glad that my phone is still suspended (okay okay I will go reconnect it tommorrow) and thus it's not that easy to contact me. I'm even glad that as I am only, not that many people are bugging me on MSN (please don't stop talking to me).

And I want to apologise to everyone for not calling you guys at all since my return. (It's just 3 God damn days anyway) I have been hiding in my room for the past 3 days, only coming downstairs (or out with my family) to eat, and even missed a very important person's birthday celebration (SORRY!) for having to entertain yet another group.

And I have barely been back, barely slept enough, barely had me time me life in me room and school has freaking started. And the modules will freak me out.

So will the kiasu Singaporeans, the be my groupmate process, the project meetings, the 2 Finance modules.

I don't know man, I'm probably making this whole thing bigger than it seems, and I think tommorrow when I step back into my school without my fucking laptop which died (FOR 1 WHOLE SEMESTER!) I will certainly not look like a hermit nor speak in a funny way but retain that bubbly hey wassup what did you do to your hair act.

But for those who care, you may just feel that it may be a teeny bit putting on a front. I don't know, maybe I won't. But hey, I'm sure I'm such an adaptable creature I'd be back.

Anyways, 2005 looks like a good year ahead with wacky things already on my way.

1. I'm moving. This time to a real home. So come March I will be packing unpacking again! (I've NEVER done this packing shit so many times in my life) And it will be exciting cos I can get my own room and design it.

2. My brother is getting MARRIED! I lurve weddings.

3. I'm graduating. I'm not so excited about stepping into the working world, but I can finally wear the mortar board. Haha.

Also, I have been trying to get over the Tsunami thing. It's just so sad (we all know about how sad it is to lose lives and buildings yah) that this place that I called home for 5 months, which we have more than once joked about retiring and living like queens, buying over a whole hill and having houses this size and that design, opening a beach bar and stuff. And boooom it goes my pretty pretty Phi Phi. I wonder if the guy who brought us outsea island hopping is still alive, I wonder how Maya Bay look like now, I wonder if the cute waiter that can mimic a rooster is okay. Random stuffs like that. It felt close. But again, like all human beings, you awww about things and these thoughts passes.

And I wonder about the after effects where corals reefs are gone, marine lives may go extinct, people may become sick with contamination of their water, of the carcasses. Of the tourism industry, of the smiley Thais who lost their jobs.

And I'm sorry I am so biase towards Thailand when India was worst hit, or Sumatra.