and i think it will be where i'd be hanging out quite often from now on. went there just now, but it's a little too crowded to be able to feel the place.
i remember looking at the boards with artist impressions of the esplanade at the busstop at esplanade itself when i was in jc. and i asked somebody whether he/she will watch me if i get to perform at the concert hall. and performing at the concert hall is one of my greatest wishes then, but coming to smu of cos disrupted that dream.
why? cos smu got no band ma. but of cos it offered me more in other senses.
kinda miss those days... to think of it, i never knew i could commit to something that... committedly. and by that i mean attending band practices faithfully every wednesday and saturday for 2 whole years. and secondary school too. that makes 6 years. there went my social life. or maybe not, since i'm all day long skipping school in jc and is in town on most weekdays.
the greatest fulfillment of them all is to be able to perform in a 1200 seater auditorium with almost full house, and having friends out that supporting you, cheering you on even if they are not the band kinda person, but is just there for you. such a good feeling that is.
sigh. the good ol' days.
suddenly feeling a twinge of emotions in me, spinning 360 degrees like a washing machine, but there isn't much that i can pen down, or say type down in this case. i feel like going out for a breather, but then i don't think dad will allow me to drive. especially i duno where i am going, and it's like 12 mn.
and i can't help with that sickening feeling. and i just feel like eating ice cream. weird eh?
i want to break free.
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